Wednesday, December 24, 2008

New Year, new life

Well, this year will mark much change in my life. Craig and I have decided to part ways. It was time, perhaps past the time. Although it is disappointing that my relationship was less than a successful one, I learned a lot about myself and found that I am stronger than I thought I was. Now the harder part; Nadine and Jerry Lee will go with Craig as they are truly his dogs. If we stood on opposite ends of a football field and I dressed myself in ribeye steaks marinated in peanut butter from head to toe, they would still go to Craig. I may be deluded, but I am not that deluded.

Change can be a scary thing, but I am feeling not one scintilla of fear, just excitement. This is my opportunity to chase my dreams and focus on myself. As your classic co-dependent, I have spent a great deal of my time and energy making sure everyone had the ability to chase their goals. Now at the cusp of turning 40, I am allowing myself to be selfish. Of course, as most of my friends and family know, it will be next to IMPOSSIBLE for me to be selfish with them. I love spoiling them…now I just have more time to do so. However, I am going to focus on my pursuits to the best of my ability. A friend suggested that I get a passport to have on hand, just in case. He could be on to something. After all, luck is when opportunity meets preparation. …

So, there will be some big transitions in the coming months; a purging of old things, embracing new things, moving to a new domicile, a big birthday, and a few trips already in the works. I am not looking back, I am not holding on to any regret. And I already have friends and family ready to step in to make these transitions easier.

And this time, my New Year’s resolutions will be obtainable.… to be open to everything that life has to offer, spend more time with my friends and family, and allow myself to be happy, just because.


10 comments:

doggybloggy said...

WOW these are some big changes - how long were you together? Will you still live in the same town? e-mail me - remember we were gonna do a food swap...

VE said...

Wow, big changes indeed! Hope you're having a good holiday though. See you on the other side for more fantastical nonsense. You still need to laugh you know!

Marc said...

Wow. Well, if you are happy, I am happy for you! I do hope your holidays are nice in spite of things. And don't be a stranger to the blog. We need to be reassured that everything is good with you! :-)

deb said...

i am with you sister! xxoo happy holidays. thanks again for checking on me from time to time!

Tanya Kristine said...

spoiling? where are my presents then??? hahaha..kidding. you're so lucky to be coming off a break up...that's when life is MOST exciting and opportunistic. really. i've got MY passport, girlie.

Beth said...

I'm happy and excited if you're happy and excited.

Merry Christmas!!!! You are so brave. I hope I'm that brave when I grow up.

Michelle Ann said...

Dogg-Craig and I have been together for nearly 6 years, but sometimes, time doesn't change the differences that two people have. I will definitely live in the same town, hopefully closer to Tanya. And I will definitely email you for a food swap!

Ve-I always laugh regardless of the circumstances...you never know when it will be your last chuckle.

Marc-I am happy because it is the right thing for me. And I have a feeling my blog will be busier than ever before

Deb-stay strong! We are amazing and we deserve what is best for us.

TK-I am so relieved and excited..you just don't know. And that passport will be worked on next week...

Beth-thanks! You have to be brave because you are raising beautiful amazing children. They seem as amazing as you are...

buffalodick said...

I wasn't getting any hints about that one- but I'm usually clueless when it comes to that stuff... I wish you the best, and it certainly sounds like you attitude is healthy!

SSC~ The Domestic Diva said...

"We have been together for nearly 6 years, but sometimes, time doesn't change the differences that two people have."

Change is hard. I am very proud of you and I wish you all the best!

buffalodick said...

I hope all is well with you...Haven't seen activity...drop by or E-mail- hope all is OK..